Weekend Update/Ramblings

Ahoy there my blog mateys. It’s been quite awhile since my last weekend update post, but like I said in past posts I’m suffering from a bit of blog burnout. But I’m slowly getting back into the groove of things and thought I’d write one of these personal posts for this week. I have to admit, one of the reasons for my general funk is my fibroid issue. I did an MRI and they found several fibroids in my uterus, the largest one measuring 20x21cm (that’s bigger than some newborns!). The growth of the tumors is a recent thing (sometime in the last month or so). They gave me a shot to hopefully reduce the size of them, before doing the hysterectomy scheduled in December (the shot will also mimic early menopause so I get to look forward to that). I seriously look pregnant again and am dreading a stranger asking me when I’m due. I was thinking of coming up with a bogus due date so I wouldn’t have to go through the awkwardness of telling them I’m not pregnant.

The fibroids have also been a big buzzkill for putting together outfits for the blog. All my pants are too tight again. I’m back to my pregnancy outfits that I pretty much wore all last year and yet I do not want to buy more clothes. So I’m making do with what I have but it’s been pretty boring around here outfit wise.

Anyway I’m trying not to get too caught up thinking about these tumors growing in my uterus and keep telling myself, this will all pass by the end of the year. And I don’t want to waste Emi’s precious baby months preoccupied. So I try to keep present and stop any feelings of shame about my body.